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I had my first tonic-clonic seizure on July 27, 2012. I was 20 years old; perfectly healthy, getting ready to start my senior year of college and turn the big 21 in just a couple weeks. After MRI’s, EEG’s and meeting with a local neurologist, I was told I had abnormal brain waves and would now be considered epileptic. I was put on medication and that was that. I had almost forgotten about the bizarre occurrence when I had my second tonic-clonic seizure nearly two years later on May 24, 2014. For the past two years now I have experienced about one to three per month.
When I first began my journey through Epilepsy, I refused to consider myself epileptic. After all, there were people working through far worse cases of this complicated neurological disorder. I felt guilty telling people that I was epileptic. I felt like I was just looking for their pity and compassion. That I was just whining and serving as an annoyance if I talked about it since I didn’t seize every day and I was otherwise healthy. But no- One seizure is too many. We need to talk about it. There needs to be awareness.
The day I finally accepted Epilepsy as a part of my everyday life is when I finally felt the slightest (key word: slightest) bit of control and ownership over this maddening new obstacle in my life. I may not have a seizure every day, but I do wake up every morning with the same fear and the same hope. I do resort to cabs and friends to drive me where I need to go. I do swallow an increasingly large handful of anticonvulsant medications two times a day. I do endure the side effects these drugs bring with them. With acceptance comes peace. With peace comes strength to take control of your life no matter the obstacle.
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